Loner Status: Loving It

Sorry for the long pause in writing, followers!

It’s been a pretty crazy past month for me – I’ve had to take a summer class (Accounting, gross) which left me with a lot of homework, and basically no social life. This was reiterated daily since my sister is away in Colorado for the summer. I’ve also had a lot of time to bond with my parents, which has been an awesome blessing, but as I’ve been praying about what to write, a topic that God keeps putting on my heart is aloneness, or being alone.

What a concept, right? The world’s focus today is to be surrounded by people – friends, parties, etc. Because if we’re surrounded by people we aren’t missing out on anything.  And honestly, being on Hope’s campus you definitely are surrounded – there is constantly something to do. Don’t get me wrong, that’s not a bad thing at all, but sometimes its just a little much, and me being the introvert that I am, I would find myself craving the alone time I most desperately needed. Personally, in order for me to be as unstressed and carefree as possible, I need at least an hour or so of decompressing time a day, and at Hope, that was nearly enough to keep me sane.

As I mentioned in my previous post, I was worried about coming home for the summer because I was worried I didn’t have a purpose. Well another reason I was worried to come home was because I was worried about being lonely, bored, and alone so often. I thought I couldn’t handle all the alone time I knew I was about to get. I thought it would get old. But readers, I was so so wrong!

Being alone for the past three months has been extremely beneficial. I think I was worried about being alone because I didn’t know how to be alone. To actually be alone with none of my friends to surround me, I was worried about coping with myself and the millions of thoughts I had running through my head. This would be the season where I was going to have to forget about anyone else’s opinion, and just think about what I believed, and what I thought on certain subjects. At first, it was extremely stressful just being alone with my thoughts, but now it’s the most wonderful pastime. Take today for example – my mom is out of town, my dad is in the yard doing yard work, and I’ve been poking around, doing things I have to do completely and wonderfully alone. To some people, that sounds super lame, and I would have said this was super lame a few months ago, but now it’s just a peaceful day that I get to be alone with myself and think or write or do whatever I want.

This is the epitome of my alone time. Using all the foods I bought from a farmer's market, I made probably the best lunch I've ever eaten today. Guess who I experienced it with? MYSELF.
This is the epitome of my alone time. Using all the foods I bought from a farmer’s market, I made probably the best lunch I’ve ever eaten today. Guess who I experienced it with? MYSELF.

It’s awesome.

This transitioning of mindsets on aloneness has also let me become closer to God. Being alone gives you a lot of time to think about life, and journaling and praying with Him is one way to get a different perspective on the world, especially as I settled into my thoughts from the first day of the summer.

As I get ready to go back to Hope within the next few weeks, I can confidently say that because of this summer, and because of my outrageous amount of alone time, I am a more confident person. I’ve had time to think about what my values are, the person that I want to be, and action plans to become that person. I’ve become more self-aware, and because of this, more decisive. I can’t wait to go back to Hope, but I am becoming more and more appreciative of what this summer has brought as each day of it comes to a close.

I hope you’ve found your own kind of peace this summer too, readers. Enjoy these next few weeks of summer before the school year starts back up!

Until next time!

Published by Mikaila Bisson

Hi there! I'm a Hope Senior from Sterling Heights, Michigan (about 45 minutes North of Detroit). I'm an English major with a Creative Writing emphasis (fitting), and have a Business minor. I'm super active in Hope life. I am a Student Ambassador, the Senior Treasurer on the Executive Board of Nykerk, and was involved in Orientation as an AD. I also work on campus at the Career Development Center as a Career Advisor, and at Hope's Physical Plant. I love playing any kind of sport (soccer's my favorite!), have a weakness for shoes, eat dessert twice a day, read like its my job, am currently watching Gilmore Girls on Netflix, and have a passion for Golden Retrievers. Contact me at mikaila.bisson@hope.edu because I'd love to hear from any and everyone. Also feel free to follow my super trendy Instagram account at @miktroubleee or my equally as trendy, even more Hope-filled Twitter account at @hopemikaila17 .

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