… Because this is what it would be like:
*Walks up to the stage swooning, until tripping on her Elie Saab gown*
“Oh geez, you’d think I’d be better at walking after 21 years of practice…”
*Awkwardly laughs, staring at the 200-people crowd, which includes Colin Firth*
“Can everyone hear me? The ones in the back? Okay, good. I know half of us here are wearing gowns that are worth half of my student loans so the sound system should be pretty fantastic. Anyway… Hello! My name is Idil Ozer and for the past… Well for a week now, I’ve been living in DC and interning at a government agency called U.S. Department of Education. It’s been only a seven days since I started my job in my cute little cubical; nine days since I moved to Crystal City and two days since I was able to unpack everything. It’s been, however, 0 days since I stopped missing my roommates in Holland, I still miss them a lot. I miss my best friend and my host-parents who were a little less successful than me on repressing emotions upon my departure. I miss things that I said “bye Felicia” to, including the annoying comfort in not having to make sure my hair doesn’t look like a Texan cheerleader’s lion-esque hair.
But that’s it. I don’t want any of it back. No class experience can replace the rush I get every time I leave the metro, trying to navigate my way to the escalators while mumbling “scuuuse meee” or no night out can measure up to that evening when I got the best cupcakes in Georgetown and ate them in Anthro’s fitting rooms because I decided to celebrate still being able to fit into size two pants. No face-to-face chitchat can make me feel closer to my friends, like a long phone conversation does. Nothing makes you feel less lonely than laughing with someone you met only a week ago, knowing that you can be friends with random people you have nothing in common. And nothing, and I mean nothing, makes me feel more satisfied knowing that what I am doing matters. Maybe no one knows about me, maybe my name will never be in the Hall of Fame for anything, but just knowing that I work for the most powerful country’s government makes me happier than anything else.
The moment I got my “ed.gov” email address and checked my inbox for my first assignment on “non-public school regulations”, where I reviewed countless rules and acts… This morning when I got sent home to rest after hurting my knee and my supervisor, who is incredibly busy, took the time to call me to check in… That time when I was still at the office at 6:30 and was the last one to leave…
It may seem like nothing is special about those moments, especially because so many Americans get to do it… But to me, it is everything I had hoped I was working towards; to me, this is the launching of a very small, yet an incredible thing. To me, this is living in the world’s capital. And it’s worth it.”